Lifeboat

Everyone's growing up lately.
Life seems to progress everywhere else.

Just look at facebook, photos of weddings all over the feed.
Let's not even mention the baby pictures.
   People have proceed in their stages of life, working, furthering study and what not. Look at a friend of mine, who recently wrote a blogpost about buying property in Malaysia. She is no longer a 'noob' and now talking about buying homes. I wonder about others then, who even before working, had been thinking about work; would they be thinking about retirement plan now?
   Come to think of it, there's a positive aspect that I didn't went back for Hari Raya this year. I'd imagine the dialogue during conversation would be about beaching their bosses.
"Bos aku kedekut gila cuti. Ni aku nak cuti pon, dia tak mau sign mula."
"Eleh, bos aku lagi teruk. Kalau aku tak pi kerja isnin ni, dia nak potong gaji. Tapi aku tak kesah."
"Aku," I would probably say, "aku punya prof teruk gak." Crickets.

   As a child, I bought into the idea of Peter Pan initially. To stay young and have all the fun in the world, being a child forever. But then I thought being a child is not that fun; it's not like in the books. First of all, you can't fly.
Add to that, you had to do chores and homeworks, follow instructions. You can't do this and that ("Why!"  "Because you're a kid."). And most important of all, you don't have any money to buy all the icecream to your heart content. So I altered my thought a bit, maybe growing up is not that bad and as the youngest child in the family, I sometimes wished that I would grow up faster(in certain aspects) so that I could 'catch up' with my siblings. Do things that 'budak kecik takleh buat' do.

   Life's a bit like that right now. I don't really wish to grow old any faster, but I feel that I've been in the same phase for too long. What can I say though? We plan, you plan but He ultimately plans.
No matter how sure, or even if we have a plan, life depends on circumstances.

   It's like I'm sailing in a boat right now, going to my island of desire. Unfortunately the winds blows against my travel, so the sails are not use. Sailing am I, no more. So I took out the paddles and splish-splosh to my destination, but rowing is hard.  Sometimes I just paddle with my palm while I lie on the boat.
   There is always land in the end, I do believe in that, but the time seems so long when you are stuck on a boat and the silence sea surrounds you.



A boat commercial with an unrelated theme. Click here for better version(can't embed that).


Still.
Time as being time, cannot be tamed to our desires. Thus the best way there is, is to tame the heart itself to be patient.
So dear readers who might be reading this and find themselves to be in the same shoe(or boat): Patience!
And to those who feel they have passed this(or even future me!) : Spare your prayers to me, and goodluck in life.

Row, row, row your boat,
perservering through the sea;
when you see the distant land,
don't forget the sea.

Thank you for reading.